This blog may not start out any different than many other people’s stories. I’m a mom. I have been blessed with 6 amazing grown and sucessful children. I have 8 beautiful grandchildren. I am married to my best friend, my person and the one I was meant to spend the rest of my life with.
I am also forever broken. I am missing a huge part of myself. I am a suicide survivor. My oldest daughter, Danielle, lost her life in February of 2019 at the perfect age 33. My life will never be the same.
Through this journey so far, I have learned so much and, yet, I have so much still to learn. For example, I learned how to take a breath when the weight of the world is so heavy on your chest and there is no one strong enough to lift it that you feel you may suffocate. I learned to get up in the morning realizing that the only person you want to hear from is gone forever. Perhaps the biggest lesson I learned early on is that depression has the power to kill. Depression killed my beautiful daughter by lying to her in the darkness of the night, telling her why she would be less of a burden to her family and friends if she was gone.
This time she listened. This time our world completely and utterly fell apart.
My hope is to help other suicide survivors as they walk a journey they never wanted. It is to help those who may be suffering from mental health challenges and needs some help or perspective. My hope is to help the friends and families of those touched by depression, anxiety, self worth issues and suicidal thoughts. This has become my reality. And I pray, your reality never parallels with mine.
You and your family is such a blessing to so many.
I hate this happened to your family. You all have made your horrible tragedy into a positive of being there for others. 33 forever is continuing to educate & reach out to individuals.
It’s my prayer that anyone who has lost someone to suicide or someone is having suicidal thoughts know they can turn to your family and know someone really cares and are so willing to help. 💙💜
I’m so sorry that you’re a suicide survivor, but I pray that your sharing this painful experience will help those who are in this space with you. You’re giving hope to so many by your work. God bless you.
Thank you for sharing your story and the unbearable pain that goes with it. May it reach out and bring comfort to someone who is going through the same thing and help them to know they are not alone in this. I am a mental health counselor and client’s who are suicide survivors need all the support they can find. It is a long, long painful journey for them and it does help for them to be able to share their story and know that someone truly knows what they are feeling. God bless you and your family. My prayers are with you.
Thank you so very much for your comment and support. Appreciate all you do for those struggling. Your work is immeasurable for those struggling. Blessings back!
You are such a God sent to me and others. It does not matter how we lost our children we have LOST our children. We are in a club that we don’t wish on others. You and Jeff are helping us through grief you still have to help us. This is my safe haven now. The only people who can help us are those who truly know what we are going through. This pain will forever be a part of my husband and I and I wish I had been more verbal in that ER but we had no clue. We are forever changed. Thank you for being there for us in days to come too. LOVE YOU!! 💜💛