Visits With My Daughter

Dinner with Dani and Greg 2011 Driving the few miles frommy hotel toward the Marina Del Rey penthouse Dani and Greg were so proud of and seeing once again where they both spent a year of their lives, gives me an incredibly bittersweet feeling. I imagine Dani on these...

What Grief Looks Like

“There is no right or wrong way to grieve. Do whatever feels comfortable for you, and don’t do anything you don’t want.” That advice was given to me by a grieving mom farther down the road in her own journey after losing her son. She shared with me her experience and...

A Month And Day Set Aside For Suicide Prevention

Some people dread a certain day of the year and others feel stress during a particular week marking an upcoming painful event. I find that the month of September seems to be a pretty tough month for me because September is set aside as “Suicide Prevention Month.” The...

What Did I Miss?

As I was riding on our boat with my husband, enjoying the beautiful lake, sunshine and gorgeous day, I heard the song “Why” by Rascal Flatts. How had I not known this song was about a suicide? After a long, long sobbing session, I wiped my eyes and looked up the...

Ripple in a Pond

“A suicide is like a pebble thrown in a pond. The waves ripple outward.” We have felt that first hand since losing our daughter, Dani. Our family was impacted more than we ever conceived possible. Our dear friends. Her dear friends. Our family. Her co-workers. Our...

Coffee and a Meeting

Dani in 2009 “TW Dani in 2010 *this blog talks about a suicide attempt and may provoke traumatic feelings. “Dual Diagnosis” is a term I learned the hard way. Here is the story about Dani’s own struggle with “dual diagnosis.“ It is also a story of Addiction, Hope,...

Faith Shaken, Not Stirred

There are many stages of grief that we go through after losing a loved one. In the 1969 book, “On Death and Dying,” Kübler-Ross, the author, examined the five most common emotional reactions to loss: 1. Denial 2. Anger 3. Bargaining 4. Depression 5. Acceptance I have,...

“THE CALL”

Why I am thinking of this is beyond me. Fortunately, for the most part, I have been able to put the details of “the call” in the back of my mind, but somehow, the memories unwelcomingly crept back to the surface. You might remember at one time or another you received...

“How Can I Do Forever When I Can’t Make It Through Today?”

Dani, gazing into the unknown. Amalfi Coast, Italy 2017 That question is one that has gone through my mind hundreds of times.  From the horrific moment we received the “call” to even repeating it in my head today when my phone accidentally dialed her...

Walking Through the Photo Gallery in Your Mind

Christmas 2018 with the family After much mental turmoil, my husband and I decided we would attend the funeral of a high school friend of Dani’s. Danielle was living in Florida at the time, and when she heard of her friends passing from an accidental overdose, she was...